Couldn’t
sleep again last night.
Still
haven’t been able to sleep properly.
Keep
having these erotic dreams about fooling around in the truck with Sarah that
always end with some horrifying image of Sarah’s father dying.
I’ve
been a wreck at school.
Can’t
concentrate on anything -- except Sarah.
When
she passes in the hall, I stand there staring at her. Like a big dumb jackass,
I guess, standing in one spot, the crowds of students moving all around me,
just staring at her, and, after she leaves, at the spot she was last in.
A
big dumb, tired and horny jackass.
And
I noticed that I've got more comments, more advice, more people concerned. I
don't know. I don't want advice, but it's nice to know that at the very least
there are strangers out there who seem concerned enough. At least somebody
cares.
I'm
so tired, I just want to sit down and fucking cry.
